The girl . . . . .

Is it growing up or I'm changing or I'm running away from something?

I don't know...

But I can notice a big change in me these days..

Yes A big change..

The girl who loved noise, loud music , dhinchak stuff

now she likes silence and only silence

The girl who was scared of darkness before

now she loves to be in dark.. Only dark..

The girl who used to talk like hell before..all the time chapar chapar

now she stays quiet all the time

The girl who always wanted people around her

now she wants to stay alone everytime

The girl who always used to think she is everything , she knows everything , she is complete

Now she thinks she is not everything , she doesn't know everything ..and she is just not complete at all..

The girl who never cared for future

now she thinks there is still a lot left to learn

The girl who prefered herself for everything

now she doesn't care a bit for herself

The girl who always cared for everything , means just everything

she is being casual day by day ..

The girl who was never scared of being betrayed or ditched

Now she scares ..for everything ..

The girl who used to trust everyone

Now she doesn't trust anyone..

The girl who thought she is determined

now she is just confused about everything

Is it what people call "growing up"?

Or "changing"?

Or "running away from herself'"?

My Lifey :[: Confusion Love

My Lifey :[: Confusion Love: "Well yes i loved you. I thought you were the one i needed for so long.I loved to love you.I loved to spend time with you , tease you ,..."

Am I Wrong?

Am I Wrong ? Am i being mean ?
I guess yes .

First i left you, then when needed asked you to be with me , and now when i dont need you im just asking you to go away ? :O
even when i know YOU LOVE ME MADLY, And me too.
But im asking you to go away from me forever.WOW. Just because i wanna enjoy my life ? :[

I dont wanna live without you , its just that your rules ruin my life,And we both are not perfect for each other :[
Our mind doesnt think the same thing .
Try to understand this.

Im not wrong , Im not mean.

Lover's girl: Confusion Love

Lover's girl: Confusion Love: "Well yes i loved you. I thought you were the one i needed for so long.I loved to love you.I loved to spend time with you , tease you ,..."

Confusion Love

Well yes i loved you.  I thought you were the one i needed for so long.I loved to love you.I loved to spend time with you , tease you , hug you , kiss you .Those were the days.I used to feel so secure in your arms.

Those three years were so memorable.Our fights , tears everything.Our first meeting,first bike ride.everything were special.

But now we are far away from each others soul.and my heart misses your heart the most.

Sometimes i shed tears and ask myself DO  I STILL LOVE YOU ?

But the answer comes from my mind , a big NO.

But my heart knows that i still do love you.But we cant get together again .

I know i cant live without you,but i cant live with you even.

I'm confused :[